1. Well, this really is a random point in my life to start a blog, halfway through my BFA, but I’ve been waiting for enough spare time to do so for awhile. When I’ve tried to start a blog before, I can never bring myself to do it, because I just have so many ideas of what to include and so I just give up because I can never decide. This has been the case for most autobiographical ventures in my life. I’ve tried to fill sketchbooks, dream-journals, memo pads, you name it, but all I ever end up with is tons of empty books and notebooks with the first few pages filled and then nothing. I guess this isn’t a good trait to have if you’re trying to be a graphic designer or an artist of any kind. I seem to have trouble finishing or following through with all of these ideas I have. Ultimately it’s because I’m smothered by so many at once. True, it is good for an artist to be filled with ideas, and these types of people are often referred to as Renaissance Men, or people that are capable of being good at so many things that they can never decide what to do anyway, or at least that’s what I call it to make myself feel better. BUT ANYWAY,  not having enough time in your life to complete all of the projects you want is a very stressful situation that I find myself experiencing all of the time. Throw some feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt in there, and there you have it, my life as an art student thus far. I do have good days though. I know that, in the end, I can do anything I put my mind to, and my self defeating attitude will do nothing but hinder my progress. So what? I’m not currently going to a major name art school like some of my peers. So what? I’m stuck going to the college that is in my hometown where I have lived my whole life, while others my age go traipsing around the country to art shows and big cities and just creating names for themselves out of thin air. So what? I’m not those other people, and in time my path will be revealed to me. Maybe I was meant to hold back for awhile and gather my thoughts and grow up a bit more, I can admit to being extremely childish still at times. So here I sit, pouring out a few insecurities of mine, trying to sound educated or something like that (yes these glasses are prescription). I know that I can make this design career into whatever I want if I work hard enough, but what am I willing to sacrifice? At the very least, I will have to sacrifice copious amounts of time, and I’m becoming more apt to do that recently. As high school wears off and adult life sets in, I find myself enjoying my work a lot more. In fact, I’ve enjoyed writing this little excerpt. It’s been a bit therapeutic. This is it, this is the time I dedicate some time to inner thoughts, this is for all of those half empty sketchbooks over the years, this time I’m going to follow through on something, a blog.

    Well, this really is a random point in my life to start a blog, halfway through my BFA, but I’ve been waiting for enough spare time to do so for awhile. When I’ve tried to start a blog before, I can never bring myself to do it, because I just have so many ideas of what to include and so I just give up because I can never decide. This has been the case for most autobiographical ventures in my life. I’ve tried to fill sketchbooks, dream-journals, memo pads, you name it, but all I ever end up with is tons of empty books and notebooks with the first few pages filled and then nothing.

    I guess this isn’t a good trait to have if you’re trying to be a graphic designer or an artist of any kind. I seem to have trouble finishing or following through with all of these ideas I have. Ultimately it’s because I’m smothered by so many at once. True, it is good for an artist to be filled with ideas, and these types of people are often referred to as Renaissance Men, or people that are capable of being good at so many things that they can never decide what to do anyway, or at least that’s what I call it to make myself feel better. BUT ANYWAY,  not having enough time in your life to complete all of the projects you want is a very stressful situation that I find myself experiencing all of the time. Throw some feelings of inadequacy and self-doubt in there, and there you have it, my life as an art student thus far.

    I do have good days though. I know that, in the end, I can do anything I put my mind to, and my self defeating attitude will do nothing but hinder my progress. So what? I’m not currently going to a major name art school like some of my peers. So what? I’m stuck going to the college that is in my hometown where I have lived my whole life, while others my age go traipsing around the country to art shows and big cities and just creating names for themselves out of thin air. So what? I’m not those other people, and in time my path will be revealed to me. Maybe I was meant to hold back for awhile and gather my thoughts and grow up a bit more, I can admit to being extremely childish still at times.

    So here I sit, pouring out a few insecurities of mine, trying to sound educated or something like that (yes these glasses are prescription). I know that I can make this design career into whatever I want if I work hard enough, but what am I willing to sacrifice? At the very least, I will have to sacrifice copious amounts of time, and I’m becoming more apt to do that recently. As high school wears off and adult life sets in, I find myself enjoying my work a lot more. In fact, I’ve enjoyed writing this little excerpt. It’s been a bit therapeutic. This is it, this is the time I dedicate some time to inner thoughts, this is for all of those half empty sketchbooks over the years, this time I’m going to follow through on something, a blog.

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